Happiness is a Choice.
I’m having a hard time finding words lately. I consider myself a blogger, an amateur writer and here I can’t even conjure words to post some general thoughts. To tweet a remark or silly happening. I haven’t had anything on my mind to share so I thought perhaps in writing about how I have nothing to write about maybe I shall come up with something. Lately I look at my life and I think “oh no! nothing to write! Boo hoo!” but then I notice something; I notice that upon reflecting on my life I find myself smiling. Such a pleasant notion to think that when I assess my current situation, that when I really dive into what is going on, who I am and what is around me, I smile. I’m truly happy on so many levels and I am just so very thankful for that. I find my mind at peace, I’m no longer torturing myself daily with lonesome thoughts, I’m finding myself less and less nervous, scared and self-conscience. I find myself so content with myself and I have never felt that way before. I credit this new sense of self to many people and changes in my life. I’ve been trying new things, staying fit and working out, and many other strangely great new things. I find I’m happy as well because I’m “trimming the fat” with the bullshit in my life. We all have those people in our lives that give us grief and drive us mental. I’m trying to cut those people out and move on and surround myself with happiness and love instead of stupidity and drama. It has changed my overall mood completely and I love it. I try to forgive and forget sometimes but generally if someone around me is causing me more trouble than they’re worth and the shitty times out-weigh the good times then why be around that? I don’t have time for people who just want to lie, cause friction, be rude, etc. I’m looking to surround myself with positive energy and good people. The difference between a friend and a best friend is that when you have a disagreement or argument or whatever with your best friend you come back together stronger after; however with someone you aren’t as close to it just makes things worse or weakens your friendship. Or perhaps your strong friendship just crumbled from constant battles, issues and lies. I’ve learned a lot this year and it’s far from over. People have come and gone from my life, and I’ve grown and changed in a lot of ways and I love that. Ever-changing, ever-growing, ever learning. I just know that what I’m doing is working because I’m happy and I am looking forward to what lies ahead with a new-found sense of courage and positivity.